So here I am, another day another blog. Not a whole lot has happened since my blog on Tuesday. On Monday I went to a job fair for Starbuck's. For some reason, this led to me believe that they were hiring, and I seemed to have a good shot at it. They told me they would call me on Wednesday either way.
They didn't call till about 3 o'clock, so that made me nervous right there. Then, when they finally called me back (right after I got home from turning more applications in) and told me that there wasn't any need for me in the market, or something like that. *sighs*
None of the other places I've put apps into have called back either. I'm somewhat hopeful about the theatre shop, but I'm trying not to get my hopes up, 'cause everytime I do that, they get crushed.
Be a pessimist and you'll never be disappointed XD
Anyways, this week my depression has been off and on. I think it was Tuesday when it was the worst. I thought about suicide for the first time in awhile. Didn't do anything, it was just one of those "The world would be better off without me" type of things. Oh how I wish I had an angel named Clarence Oddbody who would show me what the world would really be like without me. Haha.
Anyways, I'm doing much better today. Yesterday I had a few dips, but meh. *shrugs* I'm just thankful that I'm not 21 yet. That could have ended badly. But! I am not! And I'm rambling!
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
Actually Blogs
This is going to be one short blog as I don't have a whole lotta time to write. So I'll just fill ya'll into the happenings in my life.
At this moment in time, I hate life. My depression has been kicking in whenever I'm alone, so that's hard on me, especially after I have a good day, come home and just start feeling awful. Also there's some complications that I won't get into 'cause they're kinda personal.
Then there's the whole job hunt thing. I can not find a job. Sure, there may be some places hiring, but they apparently don't want to hire me. I've only worked at Hy-Vee for 5 years. Most people would think that's good, but apparently that's bad. I mean, isn't it saying something that I can pick a job and stick with it, no matter how boring it may get? I didn't just sit there and bag groceries. I did other things. I learned lots of things there. *sighs* But apparently I was just wasting time.
I'm hoping that out of these tons of applications that I've turned in I'll get one call back. Starbuck's told me that they would call me on or before Wednesday. *crosses fingers* I really need a job.
But, on a more positive note, I've gotten out of the house more then I did all summer long last year. Not only that, but I've had fun doing so. Strange that I've been spending it all with one of my ex's but *shrugs* Oh well. It hasn't been that awkward....I don't think. Sometimes I feel like it, but that's a different matter, methinks.
Well, I gotta run and turn some more apps. in. Catch ya cool cats later.
At this moment in time, I hate life. My depression has been kicking in whenever I'm alone, so that's hard on me, especially after I have a good day, come home and just start feeling awful. Also there's some complications that I won't get into 'cause they're kinda personal.
Then there's the whole job hunt thing. I can not find a job. Sure, there may be some places hiring, but they apparently don't want to hire me. I've only worked at Hy-Vee for 5 years. Most people would think that's good, but apparently that's bad. I mean, isn't it saying something that I can pick a job and stick with it, no matter how boring it may get? I didn't just sit there and bag groceries. I did other things. I learned lots of things there. *sighs* But apparently I was just wasting time.
I'm hoping that out of these tons of applications that I've turned in I'll get one call back. Starbuck's told me that they would call me on or before Wednesday. *crosses fingers* I really need a job.
But, on a more positive note, I've gotten out of the house more then I did all summer long last year. Not only that, but I've had fun doing so. Strange that I've been spending it all with one of my ex's but *shrugs* Oh well. It hasn't been that awkward....I don't think. Sometimes I feel like it, but that's a different matter, methinks.
Well, I gotta run and turn some more apps. in. Catch ya cool cats later.
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