So here I am, another day another blog. Not a whole lot has happened since my blog on Tuesday. On Monday I went to a job fair for Starbuck's. For some reason, this led to me believe that they were hiring, and I seemed to have a good shot at it. They told me they would call me on Wednesday either way.
They didn't call till about 3 o'clock, so that made me nervous right there. Then, when they finally called me back (right after I got home from turning more applications in) and told me that there wasn't any need for me in the market, or something like that. *sighs*
None of the other places I've put apps into have called back either. I'm somewhat hopeful about the theatre shop, but I'm trying not to get my hopes up, 'cause everytime I do that, they get crushed.
Be a pessimist and you'll never be disappointed XD
Anyways, this week my depression has been off and on. I think it was Tuesday when it was the worst. I thought about suicide for the first time in awhile. Didn't do anything, it was just one of those "The world would be better off without me" type of things. Oh how I wish I had an angel named Clarence Oddbody who would show me what the world would really be like without me. Haha.
Anyways, I'm doing much better today. Yesterday I had a few dips, but meh. *shrugs* I'm just thankful that I'm not 21 yet. That could have ended badly. But! I am not! And I'm rambling!
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
Actually Blogs
This is going to be one short blog as I don't have a whole lotta time to write. So I'll just fill ya'll into the happenings in my life.
At this moment in time, I hate life. My depression has been kicking in whenever I'm alone, so that's hard on me, especially after I have a good day, come home and just start feeling awful. Also there's some complications that I won't get into 'cause they're kinda personal.
Then there's the whole job hunt thing. I can not find a job. Sure, there may be some places hiring, but they apparently don't want to hire me. I've only worked at Hy-Vee for 5 years. Most people would think that's good, but apparently that's bad. I mean, isn't it saying something that I can pick a job and stick with it, no matter how boring it may get? I didn't just sit there and bag groceries. I did other things. I learned lots of things there. *sighs* But apparently I was just wasting time.
I'm hoping that out of these tons of applications that I've turned in I'll get one call back. Starbuck's told me that they would call me on or before Wednesday. *crosses fingers* I really need a job.
But, on a more positive note, I've gotten out of the house more then I did all summer long last year. Not only that, but I've had fun doing so. Strange that I've been spending it all with one of my ex's but *shrugs* Oh well. It hasn't been that awkward....I don't think. Sometimes I feel like it, but that's a different matter, methinks.
Well, I gotta run and turn some more apps. in. Catch ya cool cats later.
At this moment in time, I hate life. My depression has been kicking in whenever I'm alone, so that's hard on me, especially after I have a good day, come home and just start feeling awful. Also there's some complications that I won't get into 'cause they're kinda personal.
Then there's the whole job hunt thing. I can not find a job. Sure, there may be some places hiring, but they apparently don't want to hire me. I've only worked at Hy-Vee for 5 years. Most people would think that's good, but apparently that's bad. I mean, isn't it saying something that I can pick a job and stick with it, no matter how boring it may get? I didn't just sit there and bag groceries. I did other things. I learned lots of things there. *sighs* But apparently I was just wasting time.
I'm hoping that out of these tons of applications that I've turned in I'll get one call back. Starbuck's told me that they would call me on or before Wednesday. *crosses fingers* I really need a job.
But, on a more positive note, I've gotten out of the house more then I did all summer long last year. Not only that, but I've had fun doing so. Strange that I've been spending it all with one of my ex's but *shrugs* Oh well. It hasn't been that awkward....I don't think. Sometimes I feel like it, but that's a different matter, methinks.
Well, I gotta run and turn some more apps. in. Catch ya cool cats later.
Saturday, December 29, 2007
Saturday Night Fever
My first blog on a schedule. Seems kinda strange but maybe it will help me manage my time better. I really should post these earlier, though. That way, it would seem that I actually did post them during the day time instead of waiting till evening to do everything that I forgot to do that day. Heh....
Today was an okay day. Did not want to get up for the life of me. Seriously, I just wanted to lay down in bed all day long. But, I had to get up and start working on job applications...again. Today it was very stressful as I had to write up my first resume and that just annoyed the crap outta me. I was about ready to throw my computer out of the window. That coulda been bad, thinking back on it.
But, relief came at 3 minutes after 5. It was a friend of mine wanting to know if I still wanted to hang out tonight. Heck yes! So, he came and picked me up and we went to his house to play some Halo 3.
Unfortunatly, I didn't get a whole lot of gameplay because his work made him go back 'cause someone called in. Oh well. I got IBC Root Beer out of the deal. lol.
Tomorrow I think my brother and I will be hanging out with him again, but not quite sure yet. I would like to. I miss just hangin' out with friends. That's the one thing I'm going to miss the most about college.
Now, I'm not saying that I don't have friends here in Des Moines, I've been given proof that I do. Yet, everyone is on their own schedules and they almost never line up. At college, everyone is usually done by 5 so you can go to the cafeteria together and even if you can't get together during the day, most of you live on campus near to each other so you can just walk over to their room and hang out.
Oh keep me company, people of the Internet. Show me that I do not write these blogs in vain.
Seriously, I love reading comments from people. I don't care if it's just a "I had a bad day today too" or something like that. I'll comment back, I promise. ^_^
Today was an okay day. Did not want to get up for the life of me. Seriously, I just wanted to lay down in bed all day long. But, I had to get up and start working on job applications...again. Today it was very stressful as I had to write up my first resume and that just annoyed the crap outta me. I was about ready to throw my computer out of the window. That coulda been bad, thinking back on it.
But, relief came at 3 minutes after 5. It was a friend of mine wanting to know if I still wanted to hang out tonight. Heck yes! So, he came and picked me up and we went to his house to play some Halo 3.
Unfortunatly, I didn't get a whole lot of gameplay because his work made him go back 'cause someone called in. Oh well. I got IBC Root Beer out of the deal. lol.
Tomorrow I think my brother and I will be hanging out with him again, but not quite sure yet. I would like to. I miss just hangin' out with friends. That's the one thing I'm going to miss the most about college.
Now, I'm not saying that I don't have friends here in Des Moines, I've been given proof that I do. Yet, everyone is on their own schedules and they almost never line up. At college, everyone is usually done by 5 so you can go to the cafeteria together and even if you can't get together during the day, most of you live on campus near to each other so you can just walk over to their room and hang out.
Oh keep me company, people of the Internet. Show me that I do not write these blogs in vain.
Seriously, I love reading comments from people. I don't care if it's just a "I had a bad day today too" or something like that. I'll comment back, I promise. ^_^
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Random Blogging
I use to be such a quiet creature. I use to keep my opinions to myself unless triggered or asked. Now....now I am quite loud about my opinions. I think everyone should know my opinions. Which is why I have so many blogs. I want my opinions known, but I also want people to comment on them...to challenge them. Makes me feel like someone out there reads my stuff and cares enough to comment/reply back.
So, buckle your seat belts, boys and girls, for Shiloh is getting ready to blog your face off.
First topic: Christianity and other religions. Allow me to give you my religious background. My dad is a Southern Baptist pastor. He has been my entire life. I was raised in a good home. Sure, people called me sheltered, but isn't being sheltered better then getting pregnant at 13?
Anyways, yes, I do believe in God, Jesus as God's Son, and the Holy Spirit. I believe that Jesus came down to earth to die for our sins. No, I don't believe that He was gay or had a sexual relationship with anyone. I believe that the Earth was created, and Man was created by God's hand, we didn't evolve and there was no Big Bang. My belief is that the Earth was created in a literal 7 days, but I wont' really know till I get to ask God when I'm up in Heaven.
I believe that the *only* way to get to Heaven is to believe in Jesus as your Lord and Saviour. Good deeds won't let you in, believing in another god won't get you in, there's only one way. Jesus said, "I AM the way, the truth, and the life. Whoever believes in me shall not perish, but have everlasting life."
And yes, I am pro-life. When someone has an abortion, they are killing a baby, not a fetus or just a wad of tissue, a BABY. It has been recorded through many tests that babies do, indeed, feel pain. I think that if most women knew what an abortion was, or saw pictures of what their baby will look like before and after an abortion, they wouldn't go through with it. Know what a partical-birth abortion is? It's when they induce labor and as soon as the head comes through, they take a pair of scissors, or another sharp object, and stick it into the base of the baby's head, killing it. Don't believe me? Check here.
Also, I am anti-gay rights. Now, that sound mean, so allow me to expound. I am against giving gays equal rights as straight people. Being gay is a sin. God made Adam and Eve, not Adam and Steve. Now, that doesn't mean that I hate gay people. I have a few friends who are gay/bi. I hate the sin, not the sinner. One can change, I've seen it.
Erm....well, now that I've probably pissed off most of my readers, what else can I talk about?
I am a conservative, technically, when it comes to politics, yet I am registered as an Independent. Why? Because I believe that we should elect people based on who they are and what they believe, not because they belong to one political party or the other.
Talking about politics, what about the war in Iraq? Personally, at the beginning, I wasn't too concerned about it. I was surrounded by people who were all screaming, "Bomb Sadaam!" and the like, but I'm a peaceful person by nature, but I knew that a war was inevitable. Yet, one thing bothers me. The same people who were yelling for the bombings, as soon as we did bomb Iraq, they started to go off on how President George W. Bush was retarded for starting this war. Um, excuse me? What were you saying just a few days ago?
I know that there are things that the President and people in higher power aren't telling us. Are they being mean? No! They're trying to protect the lives of the soldiers who are fighting for us. Look at what happened in the Cold War. We broadcasted all what we were doing and the Russians were watching our TV and knew the same things that we knew. Many people died because of that. If we are watching their TV, wouldn't they be watching our TV? Duh. Maybe they don't want to tell us everything 'cause we, being the stupid people that we are, will over react or something stupid.
Why we went into Iraq in the first place is a mute point. The war has been started, there's nothing we can do about that now. What we have to do, what our job as Americans now, is to end it. Now, I don't mean that we have to pull out right now. I think that's a terrible idea. Even in WWII, we occupied Japan for a few years to make sure that they weren't going to turn around and bite us in the butt. We also occupied Germany for a few years as well. Occupation, though it may be bad for the people and on the soldiers, it's a good thing to keep tabs on those who we are trying to find out about. Have you noticed that the people getting kidnapped has gone down?
If you want to get into a political debate/discussion with me, you can just forget it as I'm not interested. I don't know everything's that's going on in America. If you want to have that discussion, feel free to talk to my brother.
Video games. Either you love or hate 'em. I personally love most of them. There are some that I can't handle (such as F.E.A.R, Silent Hill, Resident Evil, etc.) but for the most part, I find them a good way to escape from the normal life and get to be in the shoes of someone else. Do I believe that video games can make someone go crazy and kill people? If they are already violent in the first place. I've played Mario and other video games ever since I was a kid and I've never killed anyone. In fact, the only person that I've beaten up was my brother, and that's just fine 'cause he's my brother. ;)
Now, there are some video games that should never have been made. Those with pornographic items (Playboy Mansion), those that have no point but just senseless violence (Grand Trismo series), and other items that I disagree with. Do I play violent video games? Some.There are only a few that I can stomach: Star Wars Battlefront II, Call of Duty, and Halo.
Anyways....what else can I talk about....? Nothing is coming to my mind, so I think I'm going to sign out for now. Feel free to comment or something. ^_^
~Shiloh~
So, buckle your seat belts, boys and girls, for Shiloh is getting ready to blog your face off.
First topic: Christianity and other religions. Allow me to give you my religious background. My dad is a Southern Baptist pastor. He has been my entire life. I was raised in a good home. Sure, people called me sheltered, but isn't being sheltered better then getting pregnant at 13?
Anyways, yes, I do believe in God, Jesus as God's Son, and the Holy Spirit. I believe that Jesus came down to earth to die for our sins. No, I don't believe that He was gay or had a sexual relationship with anyone. I believe that the Earth was created, and Man was created by God's hand, we didn't evolve and there was no Big Bang. My belief is that the Earth was created in a literal 7 days, but I wont' really know till I get to ask God when I'm up in Heaven.
I believe that the *only* way to get to Heaven is to believe in Jesus as your Lord and Saviour. Good deeds won't let you in, believing in another god won't get you in, there's only one way. Jesus said, "I AM the way, the truth, and the life. Whoever believes in me shall not perish, but have everlasting life."
And yes, I am pro-life. When someone has an abortion, they are killing a baby, not a fetus or just a wad of tissue, a BABY. It has been recorded through many tests that babies do, indeed, feel pain. I think that if most women knew what an abortion was, or saw pictures of what their baby will look like before and after an abortion, they wouldn't go through with it. Know what a partical-birth abortion is? It's when they induce labor and as soon as the head comes through, they take a pair of scissors, or another sharp object, and stick it into the base of the baby's head, killing it. Don't believe me? Check here.
Also, I am anti-gay rights. Now, that sound mean, so allow me to expound. I am against giving gays equal rights as straight people. Being gay is a sin. God made Adam and Eve, not Adam and Steve. Now, that doesn't mean that I hate gay people. I have a few friends who are gay/bi. I hate the sin, not the sinner. One can change, I've seen it.
Erm....well, now that I've probably pissed off most of my readers, what else can I talk about?
I am a conservative, technically, when it comes to politics, yet I am registered as an Independent. Why? Because I believe that we should elect people based on who they are and what they believe, not because they belong to one political party or the other.
Talking about politics, what about the war in Iraq? Personally, at the beginning, I wasn't too concerned about it. I was surrounded by people who were all screaming, "Bomb Sadaam!" and the like, but I'm a peaceful person by nature, but I knew that a war was inevitable. Yet, one thing bothers me. The same people who were yelling for the bombings, as soon as we did bomb Iraq, they started to go off on how President George W. Bush was retarded for starting this war. Um, excuse me? What were you saying just a few days ago?
I know that there are things that the President and people in higher power aren't telling us. Are they being mean? No! They're trying to protect the lives of the soldiers who are fighting for us. Look at what happened in the Cold War. We broadcasted all what we were doing and the Russians were watching our TV and knew the same things that we knew. Many people died because of that. If we are watching their TV, wouldn't they be watching our TV? Duh. Maybe they don't want to tell us everything 'cause we, being the stupid people that we are, will over react or something stupid.
Why we went into Iraq in the first place is a mute point. The war has been started, there's nothing we can do about that now. What we have to do, what our job as Americans now, is to end it. Now, I don't mean that we have to pull out right now. I think that's a terrible idea. Even in WWII, we occupied Japan for a few years to make sure that they weren't going to turn around and bite us in the butt. We also occupied Germany for a few years as well. Occupation, though it may be bad for the people and on the soldiers, it's a good thing to keep tabs on those who we are trying to find out about. Have you noticed that the people getting kidnapped has gone down?
If you want to get into a political debate/discussion with me, you can just forget it as I'm not interested. I don't know everything's that's going on in America. If you want to have that discussion, feel free to talk to my brother.
Video games. Either you love or hate 'em. I personally love most of them. There are some that I can't handle (such as F.E.A.R, Silent Hill, Resident Evil, etc.) but for the most part, I find them a good way to escape from the normal life and get to be in the shoes of someone else. Do I believe that video games can make someone go crazy and kill people? If they are already violent in the first place. I've played Mario and other video games ever since I was a kid and I've never killed anyone. In fact, the only person that I've beaten up was my brother, and that's just fine 'cause he's my brother. ;)
Now, there are some video games that should never have been made. Those with pornographic items (Playboy Mansion), those that have no point but just senseless violence (Grand Trismo series), and other items that I disagree with. Do I play violent video games? Some.There are only a few that I can stomach: Star Wars Battlefront II, Call of Duty, and Halo.
Anyways....what else can I talk about....? Nothing is coming to my mind, so I think I'm going to sign out for now. Feel free to comment or something. ^_^
~Shiloh~
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Can it Get Any Worse?
I'm so exhausted and I see nothing in the near future where I can just sleep and play catch-up. I'm in a vicious cycle: stay up late doing homework because I'm too busy in the day to do it then, have to get up early for class, have a busy day, stay up late doing homework, etc etc etc.
My body needs lots of sleep. I'm suppose to get about 9 hours of sleep a night to function at full capacity. I usually get 5-7. All that on top of having one of the most emotionally retching weekends of my life. *sigh* And on top of all that, I have to start getting my act together and work on getting the props for "Its A Wonderful Life". It's difficult at the time as I have no idea what we have and what we don't have. I don't mean by what we have in storage, but what we have gathered and have organized, if that made any sense.
*sigh* Well, that feels a bit better, just getting it out in the open. Alas, I must go and finish my 3 projects before I can go to bed and get up for another fun-filled day starting at 7:30. At least I have costume-bowling to look forward to tomorrow night.
My body needs lots of sleep. I'm suppose to get about 9 hours of sleep a night to function at full capacity. I usually get 5-7. All that on top of having one of the most emotionally retching weekends of my life. *sigh* And on top of all that, I have to start getting my act together and work on getting the props for "Its A Wonderful Life". It's difficult at the time as I have no idea what we have and what we don't have. I don't mean by what we have in storage, but what we have gathered and have organized, if that made any sense.
*sigh* Well, that feels a bit better, just getting it out in the open. Alas, I must go and finish my 3 projects before I can go to bed and get up for another fun-filled day starting at 7:30. At least I have costume-bowling to look forward to tomorrow night.
Friday, October 19, 2007
Come to the Linkage Side
So, I decided to post this everywhere so ya'll can see where I visit and the like on the Internet.
RPG's (Role-Playing Games)
The Santharian Dream - I use to be a CD Mod (Character Description Moderator) but had to step down due to RL. I am currently a Story Mod in 2 stories. The site has been up for almost 2 years and it is one of the most amazing online communities I've ever been a part of.
The World of Seken - Something of my own creation. This isn't currently being worked on as the person that I was making it with kinda quite. I would love to get it up and running again, though. I have some good ideas for it. Time is merely the factor I'm fighting against now.
The World of Halcris - Another world of my creation, this one is prolly a lot further along then Seken. I started this half a year ago or something like that and two of my friends from Santharia offered to help. Well, they've kinda disappeared and thus the site has fallen as it is now. I was really excited about this one as well. Perhaps one day I shall have the time to revive all of these.
The Land of Narnia - Okay, so I didn't create Narnia, but this is the RPG board that I made. I think I tried too hard on it, so it fell among my "I would love to do this, but...". This will be one of the first ones I'm going to revive as I love Narnia and perhaps with Prince Caspian coming out in Spring/Summer 2008 that will give me some more people.
Chaos Releams - Not one that I started, but the first admin left, and two of my friends left, then the other so now I'm in charge with Jenks. I put Jenks in charge of making up the world and everything as I have too much on my plate as it is.
"Get-Togethers"
Facebook - Just search for me. Shouldn't be too hard. ^_^
My Myspace - Nothing interesting, I assure you. I haven't updated it in awhile, which I may go back and do, but there it is nonetheless. If you leave a comment or something, I'll get back to you, I promise.
Blogs/Writings
Xanga - My lovely Xanga that I've had ever since it was cool. I still use it today, so you should come on over and check it out.
Shy's Blog - One of my many blogs on Blogger. I like Blogger's layout and how you can have multiple blogs. The only thing I wish is that one could "subscribe" to other people, like Xanga or LiveJournal.
Shy's Reviews - A place where I talk about the books, video games, TV shows, and movies that I've seen. I should be a professional critic so they can pay me to do stuff like this.
Essays by Shiloh - A place where I put all my "essays". Not ones written for school, but ones I write on my own free time about topics I deem important. Here is a good place to see where I stand on certain subjects, but not at the moment as I have only one item up.
LiveJournal - Another place where I write stuff. What else can you say about a blog?
RPG's (Role-Playing Games)
The Santharian Dream - I use to be a CD Mod (Character Description Moderator) but had to step down due to RL. I am currently a Story Mod in 2 stories. The site has been up for almost 2 years and it is one of the most amazing online communities I've ever been a part of.
The World of Seken - Something of my own creation. This isn't currently being worked on as the person that I was making it with kinda quite. I would love to get it up and running again, though. I have some good ideas for it. Time is merely the factor I'm fighting against now.
The World of Halcris - Another world of my creation, this one is prolly a lot further along then Seken. I started this half a year ago or something like that and two of my friends from Santharia offered to help. Well, they've kinda disappeared and thus the site has fallen as it is now. I was really excited about this one as well. Perhaps one day I shall have the time to revive all of these.
The Land of Narnia - Okay, so I didn't create Narnia, but this is the RPG board that I made. I think I tried too hard on it, so it fell among my "I would love to do this, but...". This will be one of the first ones I'm going to revive as I love Narnia and perhaps with Prince Caspian coming out in Spring/Summer 2008 that will give me some more people.
Chaos Releams - Not one that I started, but the first admin left, and two of my friends left, then the other so now I'm in charge with Jenks. I put Jenks in charge of making up the world and everything as I have too much on my plate as it is.
"Get-Togethers"
Facebook - Just search for me. Shouldn't be too hard. ^_^
My Myspace - Nothing interesting, I assure you. I haven't updated it in awhile, which I may go back and do, but there it is nonetheless. If you leave a comment or something, I'll get back to you, I promise.
Blogs/Writings
Xanga - My lovely Xanga that I've had ever since it was cool. I still use it today, so you should come on over and check it out.
Shy's Blog - One of my many blogs on Blogger. I like Blogger's layout and how you can have multiple blogs. The only thing I wish is that one could "subscribe" to other people, like Xanga or LiveJournal.
Shy's Reviews - A place where I talk about the books, video games, TV shows, and movies that I've seen. I should be a professional critic so they can pay me to do stuff like this.
Essays by Shiloh - A place where I put all my "essays". Not ones written for school, but ones I write on my own free time about topics I deem important. Here is a good place to see where I stand on certain subjects, but not at the moment as I have only one item up.
LiveJournal - Another place where I write stuff. What else can you say about a blog?
Monday, March 12, 2007
Sleepless.....restless....
So....it's 5:08 in the morning and I can't go to sleep. I have an 8 o'clock class in the morning....well, rather later but....I don't know why I can't sleep. I feel tired but, at the same time, I can't sleep. Very irratating, let me tell you.
Maybe it's 'cause I have a lot on my mind. I've been thinking about adding a minor, but I'm not sure that's what God wants me to do. The idea only came to me recently, so I've been praying about. No clear word from the Big Guy yet. I'm planning on going through 40 Days of Purpose so hopefully that will clear some muddled stuff up.
Well, I think I'm going to go hit the sack now. Try to get at least 2 hours of sleep. Perhaps I'll talk more about my decision later.
Oh, and I'm beginning to post on my Xanga. Find me at www.xanga.com/shy422
Maybe it's 'cause I have a lot on my mind. I've been thinking about adding a minor, but I'm not sure that's what God wants me to do. The idea only came to me recently, so I've been praying about. No clear word from the Big Guy yet. I'm planning on going through 40 Days of Purpose so hopefully that will clear some muddled stuff up.
Well, I think I'm going to go hit the sack now. Try to get at least 2 hours of sleep. Perhaps I'll talk more about my decision later.
Oh, and I'm beginning to post on my Xanga. Find me at www.xanga.com/shy422
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